Another Chapter

I honestly don’t know how I survived 2015. It wasn’t my year at all. So much drama, so many tears,  all those sleepless nights, I almost lost my job, I almost died! Haha. An entire year wasted because of one person. But I’m still here. And one thing’s for sure, I learned a lot. 

No matter how much goodness you show everyone, if they don’t like you, you can’t please them. 

Whatever you do, whether good or bad, people will always say something about you. 

Loving someone makes us do the impossible, even if you have nothing left for yourself. 

You can’t change someone who doesn’t see an issue in their actions. 

There are really some kind of people out there who will take advantage of your kindness. 

To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved. 

There’s more to life than what you’re trying to hold on to. 

People leave all the time. 

The people we love will always hurt us. 

You should give your best all the time.

Be careful with what you say. Cause you can’t take them back no matter how much you apologize. 

Loving someone can really make us blind. 

Sorry is not the hardest word.

We are all selfish in our own ways. 

I’m sorry for everyone and everything I lost while I was in a total mess. Yes, I do have plans for 2016. And I’m sure that better things are coming my way. Because of all the things I learned. Because I already let go of what’s holding me back. Because I realized that I deserve all the wonderful things this life has to give, and I am worth it. 


Whoever I am, whatever I am, wherever I am right now, is because of the choices I made. I cannot blame anyone, and I shouldn’t. Because I put myself in this situation. And ofcourse, I won’t be able to go back to the past. All the mistakes I made, all the wrong choices, they’re the reason why I’m here, why I’m still here. I wanted to give up, always wanted to give up. I know that anytime I’ll snap and just lose my mind. I fear that day to come, and I hope it won’t. I wanted to die, but I’m so afraid of dying. Funny thing is that, we always want something and we never get contented. It’s so hard to understand this thing called life. 


You left her stranded alone when she needed you the most. You completely tore her to pieces then got annoyed at her for not being whole. Don’t ever tell me you didn’t know what you were doing because we both know you knew exactly what you were doing. Tell me, was it because you know she’s the best you could ever get so in your sick twisted mind you decided that you didn’t want her to realize her worth because you know she will leave you? Was it all just a game to you? How dare you come in like a tsunami and rip her world apart? How can you possibly have a clear concious? I can’t wait for the day she realizes you’re not worth shit, and stops crying over a boy who isn’t worth a tear. She has this unique beauty about her and guess what? You’re never going to find it in anyone else. She was one of a kind and you lost her.