I Wish

I wish I could stop being inlove with you, I really do. I wish I could stop thinking about you. I wish I could stop talking about you. I wish I could stop looking at our photos and watching your videos on my phone. I wish I could stop myself from checking your Facebook timeline or your Instagram. I wish I could stop myself from waiting for you to say hi to me or to check if I’m okay. I wish I could stop remembering you in whatever I do or whatever I see, or in every song I listen to, or in every food I eat, or anywhere I go. I wish I could stop losing you everytime I remember you, every single time. I wish I could stop wishing for you to come back to me and to tell me that you still love me. I wish I could stop myself from crying everytime you cross my mind. But I can’t. No matter where I go, no matter what I do, no matter who I’m with, I can’t stop thinking about you and hoping that you’re with me. I can’t stop myself from wishing that you think of me too. I can’t stop waiting for you to come back. I can’t stop myself from loving you. And it’s so painful and depressing to see you happy, and that you don’t even give a damn about me. It’s like we never knew each other at all. And I can’t believe that after everything, it was so easy for you to treat me like a stranger. How could you break my heart every single time? How is it possible that I lose you every time? I don’t know where I went wrong. Maybe, just maybe, I loved you too much and you didn’t love me enough.

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One thought on “I Wish

  1. “Kung mahal mo, habulin mo, ipaglaban mo. ‘Wag mong hintaying may magtulak sa kanya pabalik sa’yo. Hilahin mo. Hanggang kaya mo, wag kang bibitaw.”

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